WOW

When you don't expect things they always happen. I guess it would be good if the things you didn't expect you just knew would happen. To me it is like seeing the future. I really didn't expect to hear what I heard today. My ex's auntie told me that "I think that my nephew wants you back. Can't you feel it and see it." for me it was a where is this coming from. I thought nothing of it at first. But the more I think about it I see where she was coming from. The sad truth about it all is that although it may be true it is not likely to happen.



1: He wants to do what he wants to do and no matter what or how much love is there I can't change that.

2: There are only so many times you can forgive a person for doing the same dumb thing.

3: How many times can you let a person take advantage of your kindness before you finally start getting resentful.

In many ways I wish these things where not true yet in life I have learned to live with the cold hard truth of them. I notice that I resent him a lot for some of the really stupid stuff he would continuously do and could have prevented. Later I would forgive him and it would feel like bumping my head into a brick wall; and there is only so many times you can do that before your head starts hurting. Last but not least if you need a life of no responsibility I'm not the one for you. I have plenty of responsibility and will not let anything get in the way of me taking care of what I need to do. Life is short and being happy is the most important thing to me.

Most people say that I have resigned myself to a life of being alone because we still share so much together. Thing is I live life to the fullest and love everything about my life. Whether I ever enter into another serious relationship or not only time will tell .